I Feel Trapped In Inner-City Birmingham, Possibilities Of Emigrating Looking Low?

I feel trapped in Inner-City Birmingham, possibilities of emigrating from this thuggish society and crime of Inner-City Birmingham.But i have a terrible lot to overcome. Im 29, never worked, live in a small council flat. I suffer with borderline personality disorder and have suffered alot of trauma since 15. I long to be free, like a bird of prey, high in the sky, free, migrating to warmer, friendlier climates. but i live in fear this will never happen. I feel trapped where iam. like i can never leave this situation, this flat, leave dark depressing decaying life I waiting to be esed for therapy the road feels like a long one for me, like my dreams are impossible to achieve. what will i do? does anyone else feel like this? my goal ultimatly is to emmegrate and move away. but right now icant see it happening on this dull. dark evening in Birmingham many rivers to cross, the highway is extremely long, with my hopes and dreams like a tiny pin prick at the end, very remote.